PAIN

sometimes you have to wear a mask so people will not know how much pain you have in you. You have to smile so people will think YOU"RE OK You have to laugh so people will think YOU"RE HAPPY Pain will always be there and the questions you have in mind will never be answered.

LOVE VS. EXCUSES

It was a regular afternoon when my collegue/friend asked me to read something " AN OPEN LETTER TO ALL THE GIRLS THAT CANT WALK AWAY." HIGHLIGHT : LOVE VS. EXCUSES he is going through a rough time, he has family issues, he has emotional issues, he has money issues, he has emotional issues. He does not mean what he says, or does. He loves me he is just not ready. I have heard every excuses in the book, and I have been guilty of making excuses for people too. I am not saying you and your spousehave had a rough week you should call it quits. On the other hand if for long dragged on period of timehe uses his problems as excuses for why he disappoints you and you find yourself using the same excuses explaining to me or all your other friends maybe you should reevaluate the situation. You should not have to make excuses for him like that and he should not have to make you feel like you should. You may not find me very credible because I am not you, and I dont know everything about yor relationship. I know that it is hard for you to hear this because it is not what you see but it is what we see. The love that you guys share maybe real but why is it that you cannot figure it out? If a relationship is just needed love I bet a lot of people would still be together, but thats not all. Relationships need honesty, loyalty, and respect amongst other things including good timing. I am a true believer that people will find their way back to each other. So I challenge you to let him go and challenge him to let you walk away. let each other grow and become the people you both really want to be. If in the end you end up together maybe you really were meant to be all along but you will not work right now, and more you mess with your relationship the more you will end up resenting one another. So do this for yourself because we will be here no matter what, but you need to let yourself be your number one priority right now. --- I saw this and I felt that maybe I was mourning for so long and the reason why I cant move on is that I still hope that things will be better. I mean that him and I can still be back to how it used to be. Then I told myself. I have given my best to save the relationship but whats done is done. I wont be able to free myself if I keep looking back. It may not be that easy or may not be that quick but it wont be less painful if I start NOW. So today, I free myself for all the past that keeps on hurting me. There is good and bad memories but it will always be a part of me, it hurts me but it makes me tough. And all the lessons I learn will always be my guide in every relationship I will enter. Just what I was always been told... LOVE MYSELF MORE THAN I CAN LOVE OTHERS.

FEB 2014 getaway

BATANGAS RANDOM GETAWAY... --- we decide, we hop into the car, drive then we plan... and we make it happen that same day!